Its over, just like that. Stats paper was the worst of my lot. That paper totally dampened my mood. While Ashley was excited that the exams were finally over, I kept thinking about that horrendous paper. What would I do if I failed the paper? What if.... I could only blame myself for not studying hard enough. But now, I guess I've sorted out my thoughts. I'll just take a step at a time. If I were to do really badly, there was nothing I could do to change right?
Went Vivocity with my project mates after exams. Carl's junior was so hard to find that I practically walked the whole of 2nd floor to find :( Alps said my face was pale by the time I saw them. But anyway, their burgers were worth the walk. Everything was so gigantic in size!
Today was also the start of my work. Its back to the same old line. Maybe I've gotten use to being rejected by clients and candidates now. But I still lacked the skills to talk and negotiate, especially wages. Even commission doesn't motivate me to work harder. I'm just happy with my basic pay :) Janet told me that boss does check our computers. I was shocked. I shall clear my website history everyday from now on, or just use msn :)
The flu marked the start of my 1st day at work too. Kept on sneezing and sneezing. DAMN. My nice colleague offered me panadol! Turns out she was down with flu too. And the colleague sitting beside me offered me biscuits! I'm surrounded by nice colleagues! Hope all these reasons were sufficient enough to stop me from hankering after jobs with higher pay...
This guy kept talking on and on about the government and structural unemployment. Realized some stuff he said made sense. He mentioned that structural unemployment was there coz companies were unwilling to let workers with irrelevant skills enter a new field. He was willing to lower his pay and status, but who could give him a chance? They would choose a fresh graduate over him, one who has a vast array of experiences and qualifications. There was nothing I could do to help him. Even if I put in a few good words for him, would the employers be persuaded? Everyone would just think for themselves till the same thing happened to them. Its a sad fact, but it was so terribly true.
Working is the period where I could stop thinking about school, pick up myself and start all over again :)
