Happy belated bday renmin, and happy bday to becca and zhongyue!
its a silver. i clean forgot about scco's SYF till i read weilin's sms. she was sad for my school, coz they deserved a gold, in her eyes.
Thinking back, I guess my love for scco is not as strong as compared to last time. haiz, why do such feelings fade as time goes by? its undeniable that I had fun in scco, and I knew many great friends there, but somehow the feeling's not there when they are gone.
All the stuff is going to happen again. people crying, everyone lamenting the individual parts where they could have done better, and all the talk about "we did our best", as long as someone recognized our efforts and felt that we could have gotten gold, it doesn't matter what we got. Arrrr, why is everything so subjective? How do u define a gold team?
I even remembered that i did a stupid action of crying for scco when they got silver 2 years back. it seemed that they had worked so hard to attain the silver. jus felt like i was part of them in spirit. but now, the feeling is jus nt there. i feel sad for myself.
The second one came yesterday, in the form of a red envelope by dear guan er. pls don't ask me what the words on the envelope meant. its greek to me :)
This shows how frustrated I have been for the past few weeks. :)